to talk about me and what has happened. Most of you know that things with me haven’t been right since November 2009. On the 24th November 2009 the love of my life up and walked out on me and my boys. Ever since that day things haven’t been good. Over the last 5 months I haven’t been in a good space and some days have seen me really low, lost, scared, tired etc.
I have been hiding under a rock and only now finding my way out from under it. Things are still sooooo very hard and everything hurts but the boys and myself are getting there. Makes things hard when my ex husband doesn’t care about his boys and Neil wants to move to Auckland to be with his new girlfriend and leave me to bring up Noah on my own. But we are taking one day at a time. I need to make time for me but that is hard when your doing it on your own.
I have started scrapping again and that feels great but going through photos with Neil in them is hard. I was sitting one night going through them and Noah spots a photo of Neil and he wouldn’t let it go and sat on my knee crying his little heart out….what do you do?
At the moment I seem to be doing alot for everyone else and that is doing my head in but I don’t know what to do for me. I have no idea! My friends and family have been fab and are there for me if I need it (and I need it).
I went out and got myself a job doing 15 hours a week and then had to turn it down. As I am on the DPB (which I hate so much) 😦 and when you start working they take money off you and by the time they did that and child care costs I would be working for $3 a week. Not worth it. Wouldn’t you think WINZ would make it easy for you to go out and get a job…BUT NO!!!
Everything sucks right about now and life isn’t pretty but one step at a time.
Thought I would share some layouts I have done using kits by Scrappin’ Patch.
This layout just needs a title.
And this one is a scraplift from a layout that Scrappin’ Patch had on their wall. Loved it, had to scrap it.
Well better go, have a great weekend